I realised today the pressure resting on me about the holiday situation is simply the fact that Holly is due back at school to a brand new teacher…and that teacher has asked the children to bring items in to show her about their holiday. I’m feeling the pressure of not following the direct instruction of the school letter…now, having realsied that, I can sort that out… The fact is it doesnt matter, her teacher just wants them to take something in to help them to talk… we can do that another way.
I don’t actually feel we’re deprived in any way if we don’t have a holiday… and for the past few years (since having children) I’ve found holidays are very guilty of false advertisement. Whilst your family home is full of all the gadgets, props, gismos to keep small children safe and contained as well as all their favourite varying toys… a holiday is more of a trial to see how you cope if everything helpful is taken away for a time … with a select few things you have managed to bring along are jammed in your head for a long journey. My personal highlight was pitching a tent at Soul Survivor that we’d borrowed, which had no ground sheet, in a swamp of mud whilst Elijah was just learning to crawl. I remember holding my wriggly baby, facing the swamp beneath me because the tent was too low to stand up and crying. It was cold and getting dark and SO MUDDY. By the end of the night we’d pegged down ripped open carrier bags and that was our floor for the week. Don’t get me wrong though.. it’s those memories, however you feel at the time, that make family life special and its those experiences that make us who we are… and we are now campers… though part of our credit card debt is the second biggest tent you can buy with 2 ground sheets and a carpet! So we’re still weighing it up… is it worth it? Can we get the same sense of time together and funny memories if we stay at home and make some days out in the country side? Maybe we’ll sleep in the playhouse, maybe we’ll make a den and sleep in the lounge or maybe we’ll just spend that £45 to go off somewhere… jury is still out